Sunday, March 27, 2005
8:23 PM
okay went out with mum..kinda drove around s'pore..haha it was fun la..i love long bus rides and car rides..my mum was so funny..i mean everyone would say"where the hell am i?"but she said"where the idiot are we"i gave her the 'huh' look and i started laughing..haha okay anyway she dyed her hair and she dyed the wrong colour!LOL!i woke up wallking to the kitchen getting a shock la..i was like'woah!'haha anyway i wont talk about what i did this morning..cause i already said in my morning entry..okay we went around town and shop saw this pants i wanted which cost 70++ shall save and get it one fine day..lol!lets just hope that day comes la..i still own my mum money which i plan to give her back but like maybe later later?haha oh well..i cant wait for melissa to come home!!we're gona go shop till we drop dead..okay i wish..lol this time yewj isnt gona come home with her so maybe there will be a better chance..anyway school starts tml and i dont feel like it..dont know why either..haha oh well..i wana go to a party..just feel like having a party..lol..okay..whatever..cheers peeps!:)
1:14 PM
thanks to blogger i had to re-write my entry..like wtf!!okay woke up at 10 to shower my dog..suppose to go to mel's place cause i think it rocks and i wana see monster!!haha the dog which melissa calls stupid..haha i think he is so cute la!okay anyway im not going anymore..going next next week instead..so today im spending my day with my mum..gona go out..dont know where either..oh well..got POA and maths homewokrk but monday im not having any of those sub..haha oh well..okay i guess this is all..cheers people!
Thursday, March 24, 2005
7:12 PM
went to school myself today..met up with joyceh,nikki and sam..sam was talking none stop..she just goes on and on and on..she can even go on forever..haha so i got her to shut up for about say..10mins?ahha and she did!lol..it was really funny la..had fun..but i was super tired during class that it got me moody and all..esp with that fucked up teacher i had..she is one big fat asshole i tell you..i cant stand the look of her..okay im no where better la..haha okay anyway..got my thing today..it suck la..everyone seem to have got their thing today..sam got it too..chess got it too!lol..its really funny..anyway..suppose to have house prac today..obviously i didnt go..i have not even been to one house prac since the year started..haha okay bad example i know..but look i seriously dont care..sports day is coming..not really looking forward to it like i was when i was in sec 1 and 2..ahha anyway..gona go pray for my grandpa tml that means gotto wake up early..but love it!i have fun every year with my cousins..anyway..today's my dear mother's b'day..met her after her facial..but before that i followed melanie to her dental which took really long so we took cab to tbp and i walked her to the road la..haha then i went off to meet my mum..sarah and chess came along..we had sushi for lunch..yes together with my mum..i ate alot..now i feel like a pig..later im gona go out for more with dad and mum..save me..all that weight that i've loss!gone to waste..so sad!okay anyway there isnt any traininig tml..still thinking if i should go for a run tml..maybe i would..ahha okok anyway..i guess this is all?haha oh steph said i have to go shopping..and yes i agree..i've been wearing the same stuff and its boring and im already a boring person..what to do?no money la..lol..okok so my b'day give me red packets!lol..okok cheers people!:)
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
4:39 PM
okay first day wasnt so bad..had track in school..i felt that i did achive something for that very training:) today tuesday,was okay la..my life is like kinda dull..haha cause of my mum..dont really wana talk about it la..she just makes my life suck so badly sometime..now i cant go online..only on fridays and sat..and only for an hour!!! like hello!!what can i do with just and hour online..she says that will carry on till exams are over..i hope she meant mid-years cause of else i wont have to go online ever again till end of the year..hahah that was what yushan said..okay today we were out looking at each others eye candy..haha it was damn funny la..anyway..train during PE and recess today..felt really happy cause i felt that i achive something again!:D anyway..im dead beat now..feel so damn tired..couldnt sleep again last night..dont know why..i was so tired but i couldnt sleep..if this carries on i'll just die one day of not enough sleep..ahha okok..guess this is it..cheers!:)
"i dont know what to do when i think about you"
Sunday, March 20, 2005
8:21 PM
okay to day was the last day of SPH..yes..it was the worst SPH ever..dont ask why..it just suck la..not cause i never run..but..everything was just wrong..everything is kinda falling apart..okay anyway..i've yet to get my new spike shoes and track shoes from aunt ann!:D im one happy girl about that okay..anyway..saw the girls ran today..way to go C'div girls!!you girls did well for the 4x100!ahha esp joy..you were so scared before the race that you ran your butt off!ahah good job..same to the rest..you all did well..okay..saw siao mei ran too..my gosh!she is super good la..she is so fast..haha oh and of course our(the track team)dearest mary(qing ying)haha she is still the best la..haha we kept teasing her..haha okay anyway..saw my ex crush at the track!haha was actually cheering for cjc..but when i saw my ex crush i cheered for acjc..ahha okay im not saying its a him or her..okay but it maybe kinda obvious to some la..hahaha!okay anyway school starts tml..i shall start working hard on track now..a 100% for every training..i must get to where i should be..and not just dream about it..i will get there!haha yes yes..the passion is back..but..yeah..okok no more hard feelings i guess?haha okay..i guess this is about it..im feeling so much better now that i've sort my thoughts out..:)
Saturday, March 19, 2005
12:17 PM
okay..to those who had text me and tag my board and asked if im okay..or cheer me up in a way or another..thanks alot..im better now..thanks to you all..but its not what your think it is la..haha okay im not gona talk about it here..those who knows about it..shh okay?yep..SPH is like in an hours time..not sure if im running..but i have to show up cause i have to be there in case he has not enough runners..oh well..okay i have nothing to say..cheers!:)
Thursday, March 17, 2005
10:13 PM
"it all happen so fast..too fast for me to take it..im lost..so so lost..i dont know what to do or say..i've cried till my eyes are blood red and it hurts..but no,im not done with the crying yet..everything is gone..just in that few seconds..all gone..just like that..i guess we both know its over..but my heart will always be with you..remember,i love you..but..its over..its all gone..i dont know if to you this even means something..but it sure did mean something to me..i guess everything just went wrong..i hate you..but i love you more then i hate you..cause i cant bring myself to hate you or let you go..i dont even know why did you allow that to happen..it makes no sense..i guess only in a perfect world that this wouldnt happen..but..this isnt,a perect world..we all know that.."
12:12 PM
had training yesterday..bet if i didnt turn up he wouldnt even realise..some of us were treated like glass..he didnt have to make it so obvious..i know we're nobody to him okay i shant say we..i shall just use the word me.he is so fucking bias its killing me..he fucks everything up..i hate him..and that is one fact that will never change..sometimes i dont see a point in even turning up for track..talked to jiarui yesterday..its been so long since i last talk to her..everything is broken up..the team,the passion..everything..there's so many things going on in the team..sorry..correction..it isnt a team anymore..everyone has their own world..i wana quit..but then all my cca points will go to waste and i only have two more years left..thats if i pull thru..oh well..i ws feeling kinda horrible after track..alot happen which i shant say..cause its just too much to put down in words esp when it comes to that man.got blisters from my run..my spikes gave em to me..i gotto get new spike shoes and track shoes..and my mum isnt gona get em for..haha my my aunt cheers me up and made my day by saying she'll get it for me for my b'day..i was really happy..but then..i thought..but im nothing to him anymore..isnt it a waste to get new shoes?maybe not the track shoes..but the spike shoes..will i even get the chance to use em?i dont know..he is just down right bias..i have nothing more to say about him..he is a disgrace to all track and field teachers.sorry but i have to say that.okay enough of track.my hamster is good okay..im serious..she knows when im upset of happy and all..haha what can i say?she rocks!:)haha i cant wait for aug to come..mel is coming home for half a month..i miss her!i miss jed and jazza..in short,i miss newzealand.cheers!
i've got no more reasons to stay on when everything is broken up.whats the use of running in my race when there's no more team?no more passion..everything is just gone...
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
9:03 PM
okay today training was good cause i "long lost"frens came..but....things have changed..sigh..oh well..i am talking to jr..we both wana quit..but we cant cause of the points..sigh..i cant stand that black men..not cause he is black..but cause he is one fucking bias asshole..theres just too much to say why..i feel like ice-cream now..lol..oh and my aunt it gona buy me new track and spike shoes for my b'day!!!!im like so happy!!but wait..if im not gona run..buy new spikes for what la..sigh..oh well i hate him..i really do..but what can i do?i got blisters from todays running..my spikes bite me!its damn painful la..its at the bottom side of my feet..oh well..sigh..dont know what to say..yep..oh!my hamster rocks la!:)
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
8:22 PM
The Moffatts-i miss you like crazy
I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that i never had
When i think of you
I don't know what to do
When will i see you again
I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl i'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy
You are all that i want
You're all that i need
Can't you see how i feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real
When i think of you
I don't know what to do
When will i see you again
I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl i'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy
"i wonder what your thinking of tonight,
maybe you've been crying just like me?
i dont know why i lost your touch,
maybe cause i wanted to be loved too much?
i told you everynight in every way
i love you.i just wanted you to love me cause girl,
its not right and its not fair..missing you cuts like knife.
but i guess..it doesnt matter does it?
11:01 AM
leave me alone;
couldnt sleep last night..there were millions of thoughts running thru my head..my leg started to hurt like fuck shit all of a sudden..it felt like my bone was frozen so i got some deep heat..it didnt really get my leg all hot but at least it was better then nothing..this morning i woke up trying to get out of bed and it hurt the min i try to move my leg..i have no idea how the fuck am i gona do the relay training this wed if my muscle still ache like they do and my leg still have that fucked up problem..sorry i know my entry is like filled with the F word..but im just kinda pissed with my mum cause she took my phone to work cause she didnt want me to use it..like hello!bitch!you could have TOLD me first right..fuck la..i hung up on her just now..okay i know its not right to do that..but she just drives me crazy..so so so crazy at times i feel like killing myself..seeing my room window just fucking hell temp me..aargh!okay im gona be missing in action too..im not gona reply msges answer calls..but i'll still go for track duh!and after that thats it..i cant stand my life anymore..i wana go to newzealand..aways from the whole fucking world..away from my mum..i cant stand it..i cant stand my mum!!argh!okay it doesnt matter..not anymore..im just gona make myself feel numb so i wont feel anything..oh well..sigh..cheers.
"i just wanted you to love me but you made it seem so hard"
Sunday, March 13, 2005
10:44 PM
lindsay lohan-over
I watched the walls around me crumble
But its not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts because it will end
And my tears are turning into time I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
[Chorus:]
I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know
I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time you're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
[Chorus]
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
[Chorus]
Tell me that it's over
Over
Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me
Don't tell me that its over
Don't tell me that its over..
"it seems like we're not in in together"
9:59 PM
okay i slept late last night..haha was talking to my hamster till 3am..we were yawning alot towards the end..it was funny la..haha anyway we talked about stuff..duh..ahha okay today i went for my granny's sister's birthday lunch..it was freaking hot in there and i had to keep taking pictures and i was like the tallest la..so i felt SUPER weird..ahaha anyway my dad and mom and i went for a short car ride and soon headed home..today was kinda boring in a way la..came home and we called mel!:)))))talked to her..i miss her and the 6 animals in the house la..haha anyway i cant wait till she comes back for a short holiday..im gona gop shopping with her..haha then maybe can get her to get some stuff for me la..hahaha okay im sly..anyway..there's track tml at NIE and before that have to head to school for a short meeting with ms alicia and the retard gang..lol..anyway i have to sleep early tonight..cause i have track tml!haha im like so looking forward to it..oh well..cheers!
"it seems..it seems..like.............."
Saturday, March 12, 2005
11:24 PM
the camp was okay..it didnt really turn out as bad as i thought it would..i had fun with anna,chess,fangzi,leanne and ms sim the ah lian and ms alicia haha i tell you we had so much laughter esp when it comes to fangzi..she is RETARTED okay..haha whatever she said made no sense at all and it makes everyone laughs..haha anyway we had fun la..anna chess and i were in charge of this toilet and we kept playing with water..esp n the last night..haha we had GREAT fun but we got caught and had to run 5 freaking rounds round the hard court..but it was okay la..i got to know some sec ones too..haha and they are really funny for some..anyway i was so freaking tired after the camp..and i still am..i slept at around 12 last night..woke up at around 12 this afternoon..haha clean the house then went out with mum and dad for lunch then mum went shopping so we followed..we went to places that were like on the south?haha anyway..got the bill today..my phone bill is 148.10 bucks and 2984 msges were charged..haha i nearly died..mum is nice this time..i just have to give her my phone every night when she comes home..and i have to pay her 118 bucks..that i dont know how to give her but i'll save up slowly..no more eating like a duke mabel!:( no more spending like a duke mabel!:( so sad!!argh..i cant stand it..i felt so bloody hell fucked up la..sigh oh well..mum's birthday is coming..that means im spending money now that both marilyn and mel arent around..argh..this is happening at the wrong time..oh well..i've got nothing to say..everything is just so fucked up..okay..cheers people.
"im numb..thats when i feel nothing at all"
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
8:12 PM
Almost Here-delta goodrem
(feat. Brian McFadden)
Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i?d left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here
Monday, March 07, 2005
8:05 PM
okay had half day today..suppose to have track in school but ms goh said i shouldnt go cause i still sounded sick..so i went to see sng and he told me to see leslie and zender..zender was like nope dont train..your sick before i could even tell him anything..haha i guess it was really obvious that im sick la..oh well..so i sit in for track and got my attendance taken..but i felt super bad cause i couldnt follow steph go back to sjc..thank god she had adora they all or i would have felt even worse..haha so if steph if your reading this im sorry!! haha okay anyway..waited for joyceh to finishing dancing..so i rot in the audi with tanya and chess and i was blasting my ears with tanya's ipod and chess kept turning down the volume..haha like whatever cause they both kept saying that im deaf..haha yeah now im crazy over simple plan's perfect world..its super nice and chess thinks so too:) anyway joyceh finished at around say 2?yeah than we rot in the canteen actually waiting for simone but she was taking forever so we left for town..the asses just went mad okay!ahah but i had great fun!:)))))okay we went to taka,cine,heeren and..oh thats it..haha okay im being crazy..we took neos and we took twice cause the first one suck..haha anyway we had fun..we went to LJS after that and we got alil something to eat and headed home..our buses came at the same time..chess followed me to my mum's place and my mum asked her over for dinner so why not?ahha we d/l songs and she blogged here too..okay this is about it i guess?oh efl is like in one days time..i hope we get to sleep in the audi!!!i need and want air-con..haha oh and i may need to bring lil'rover la..okay im not a kid okay..haha i wana bring coffee too..but she'll lick everyone la..that silly dog of mine..oh well..loves!:)
simple plan-perfect world
I never could’ve seen this far
I never could’ve seen this coming
Seems like my world’s falling apart
Yeah
Why is everything so hard
I don’t think I can deal with the things you said
It just won’t go away
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through
Yeah
I pictured I could bring you back
I pictured I could turn back time
Cuz I can’t let go
I just can’t find my way
Yeah
Without you I just can’t find my way
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
I don’t know what I should do now
I don’t know where I should go
I’m still here waiting for you
I’m lost when you’re not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can’t let you go
Yeah
Yeah
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
Nothing, nothing at all
Nothing at all
Sunday, March 06, 2005
2:14 PM
went to jobelle's party yesterday night..but first i met simone in town and we walked around hoping to find a place to sit down cause we both were like damn tired la..haha and she had blisters..haha poorgirl la..anyway we finally got a place at boreders coffee bean..did i get the spelling right there?okay oh well..the whole world knows my spelling is horrible..anyway we bumped into alot of people..haha oh well..we talked alot too..and crapped half the time la..anyway we set there for quite some time before we left to meet steph the bimbotic hamster,adora and michelle..hope i got the spelling of their names right..haha anyway yeah..we all cab to krystal's place and gave simone a change of clothes..ahah she kept complaining to me la..anyway the party wasnt too bad but i fell..haha damn funny..cause jo and i wanted to take some water to splash ravinder..haha but i ended up slipping and i fell*smack*right on my right side..lucky i didnt hit my hp..at least i didnt really..but i scrap my elbow have two really painful blue black..one one my knee and the other on my tigh..its painful and i have hard time sleeping..cause i liek sleeping on my right but i couldnt yesterday..so i had pillows all over..lol..i slept late last night..around 2plus 3..was talking to the crazy hamster..ahha we crap alot and when steph laugh i'll start laughing too..haha anyway krystal called us at around 1plus..we were like waiting for her..but she kept getting us to hang on..so it was as good as only steph and i were talking..lol anyway i couldnt take it and i hung up at 2plus..didnt wana fall asleep on them..okay woke up at 11 plus 12?im not sure..but steph msg woke me up la..as usual..her msges come thru the wrong time..haha anyway i think this is about it..oh!melissa maybe coming back during june july..i miss her like fuck shit okay!!!i miss her so so so much..i miss lil jed and jazza too..sigh..i miss everything in newzealand la..i wana go there again..shall work hard to mum will pay for my ticket there..:D okay take care..cheers!
to simone
"aye sorry i blew up at you girl..dont think too much about that thingie your thinking about okay?loves!"
Friday, March 04, 2005
10:31 PM
okay ca is finally over but thank you the flu bug decided to hit me and now im down with a horrible flu..the worst so far..i feel like pulling my nose out la..i used three packets of tissue today and it still isnt enough..my nose cant stop running away..i wanted to go for track but ms goh said no i shouldnt of i'll get worst..so i went home..and i showered and i slept in air-con though im sick..lol!okay i slept till 7pm and im still tired..it sucks la..my nose is still running alot..i was sneezing so much my head hurt..haha i think i've sneeze all my brain cells out..hahaha!okay im talking crap..does our brain even have cells?okay im making a fool out of myself here..shall stop it..lol..i cant believe i miss track la..sigh..oh and i cant believe im going for sec1 efl..kill me please..i dont want efl..not with the sec1s la..i wana go with the sec3s but i also dont want..i dont mind going but i want to stay in hotel..hahahha!okok im lame..sigh my nose is killing me..im still tired so i shall sleep early hope i'll get well by tml..im like sneezing after every two words i type la..ahha okok take care..loves.oh im so gona miss my cousin cum bestie cum "girlfren" during efl la..i'll miss jo too!!!!sorry you girls..i know you all will miss me la!hahahahah
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